Life has given me a life long of sadness; whatever weather it has given, it has given me rain; gave me stones in every way. Even my own have become strangers…..many many mistakes I have made. Life has always been difficult for me, never has it established a friendship with me. When ever we met, it has given the gifts of tears, given me very very less chances of laughter…. Life has given me a lifelong of sadness; whatever weather it is has given it has given me rain.

Wow, this is a very very rough translation of a song that I absolutely love. To be able to write such thing, can you imagine the magnitude of sadness. Sometimes we may not be able to celebrate in someones happiness, but I tryly believe most of us can feel the sadness around us. At least I can feel the pain, and sadness in a sad heart. I will never forget a night at 3 a.m. one of my closest friends called me crying because her fiance had broken off their engagement….my god I dont think I have ever felt such pain coming from anyone. It was heart breaking and I could feel every second of it.

Anyways, pain is relevent, we dont all find the same things painful. The same thing that my bring me down to my knees you may not be even slightly affected by. But when we feel our specific pain,…. Good God… there could be nothing worse than that. Sometimes a broken promise, a broken heart is sooooo much more painful than any broken bone.

I am in such a bind, in this terrible economy I have a good paying job but I am absolutely unhappy at. Everyone I talk to tells me not to quit, everyone tells me ” so many people have lost thier jobs, they would kill to be in your position” and I know I should be grateful and try to stay strong and stay with my job….but it gets so difficult sometimes. Oh god help me please….help me make the right choice, please show me the right way.

I am not a religious person, but I do believe in god, with my whole heart… even when I am unhappy and complaining and mad at god I still believe…. when no one can help me…or when I have no one to be happy with and thank…he is in my thoughts and in my mind. I truly do believe that god has always only given me what I have been able to handle….no matter how terrible my sorrow, he has always given me a outlet to forget my pain, he has always given me a shoulder to cry on. Like the story about the foot prints on sand, when I have had no strength to walk on my own, I have still made it across the desert….he has always been there to carry me. Thank you god. I dont know what I would do without my faith in him. And I truly believe that he is here with me now, and when I am no longer able to walk on my own he will carry me and see me through.