Ok the last post for the night.

My very good friend and I were having problems. We were living together for a little over a year and a few months before I decided to move for my job we started having this weird unspoken thing between us. There was no one moment of big fight, no confrontation…just a feeling of uneasy distance between us. And as time went on it just got worse. Anyways I keep thinking that hopefully we can make it better, and sometimes if feels like it is getting better…like we are getting back to our normal selves and then something happens and things just go back to not being ok. Anyways when I think of my future or of anything I want to do I always see her as a part of it. I dont know why our relationship is not the same anymore, but its a shame.

Anyways when I was crying at work on firday, I wrote her a msg and she called me immediately and it made me feel so much better just to talk to her. Man I missed my friend. Anyways yesterday I went to visit her at her parents house, it was kinda good to hang out to her and her family….they have always been very nice to me. It seems like when its just us things are just great, but when any of our other friends get involved something happens and we are not the same anymore. A mutual friend of ours is leaving to go back to Europe and I specifically asked her to call me when she was with him so that I could say good bye to him as well and I guess she forgot. And for some reason that bothers me. Sometimes I expect perfection from the people I care for and when they fall short I am not very forgiving. Maybe that is why things went bad between us, because I expected too much from her. Well actually, I expect from people what I am willing to do for them, or I expect from people what I expect from my self. I cant hold people to a standard that I have set for my self. Anyways I am sorry!!!